Hmmmm...?
So wow. Really? I guess the answer is yes. I am doing this again. I know there is zero audience, but I still feel the need and compulsion to "speak" as if there were.I am avoiding grading. It's well past the 11th hour, and yet here I am. Still avoiding. I don't know why. I don't understand the point. I think it's because I am nervous and stressed and freaking out a little about teaching the BC section of my AB/BC calc class... but I don't really know. I truly HATE doing grades, so I can't just "decide" that's the reason or the problem.
I just want to drink the night away and stop worrying about it... which is of course not an answer. I really want us to not have school tomorrow so I can continue to avoid the whole thing, but I don't think I am going to get that lucky. Although, who knows? Maybe we will since SO MANY people still do not have power.
I don't know. I guess I just need to suck it up and do my job.
I was doing so well. Keeping up on grades (mostly) and my dishes and my house and even dropped TON of weight... what has happened? I hope it's not too late to stop the back-slide. I am still hovering at my lightest and I DO NOT want to gain the weight back or let my house go to shit. Actually, I've really been enjoying living a "normal" and happy life.
Whatever it is that I am afraid of, please present yourself so I can deal with you or GO AWAY. I like myself like this.
posted by Ali @ 5:34 PM
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