Last Night
It was so oppressively hot there was an Excessive Heat Warning. Not just a regular heat warning, but an EXCESSIVE one. As I was preparing to go out - you know, thinking about doing something to my hair then deciding no, reapplying the deodorant (because I don't like to even run the risk that I might possibly smell) and so forth - the storm hit hard.The power went out, the rain came down in sheets, and the lightning was so close you could feel it in your teeth. When I let Cam out I could hear cracking and breaking in the trees as they whipped around like blades of grass. I actually stood on the stoop wondering if any were tall enough to hit my house when they fell. Not if, but when.
I thought about bailing out, because really I don't think it was safe to drive in that. The fact that I passed countless branches in the road, along with a tree or two confirmed my thought; but on the other hand for better or worse I needed to get this whole thing over with so I decided to suck it up and go.
My opinion prior to should have been enough to tell me the resulting feeling I would have from the evening, but I at the same time I had committed to going and I don't like to back out of a commitment. I'm just not one of those kind of people if I can help it.
So yes, the second vibe was way more right than the first and no I am not planning to see said random guy again. It wasn't that I had a bad time, just not feeling anything in terms of interest in even getting to know him. I guess because I don't have all that much time I don't want to waste it on someone who seems so completely disinteresting. The problem I find myself in is at the end of the night when he asked if we could do it again I said sure. Oops. I don't know why. I guess it's just when someone asks me in person I have a very difficult time saying no. The parting was every bit as awkward as you can imagine. I don't know if he was thinking kiss or not but I didn't care. I was so non-interested I didn't even want to hug him as I left, but decided that would be wrong. I mean what, was I just supposed to shake hands, say thanks and see ya? I don't know, I just couldn't do that.
Anyway, so I don't know what I'm going to do. Probably be the typical busy as hell Ali and let things go on like that. As much as I may complain about my lifestyle I have built it for a reason and this is certainly a good one...
Oh, and I still have no power as far as I can tell. This means that yes, I did wake myself up somehow sans alarm clock and yes, I did go to work without showering (hello? there was ZERO reason for a cold shower and they are so not fun).
posted by Ali @ 9:26 AM
1 Comments:
coffee tonight???
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