Planning
What is "what I am supposed to be doing", Alex?Instead here I am writing to you. I am just so not motivated to plan. Granted, I am planning for TOMORROW, so motivated or not it needs to be done but for some reason I am just so not doing it. I also should at least be doing something productive if I am not going to be a good girl and plan but again, just not.
I am making dinner tonight for someone that I have sort of been seeing a little. I have ZERO IDEA WHAT IN THE F_U_C_K I was THINKING when I made the offer, but I did and it was accepted and this is now where I find myself.
I so need to remember to go to the store to buy food.
Anyway, one thing I've discovered about school is that I am unable to take 5 minutes to be in an alone space unless I force myself. And while I know you think that should be ok, it's really not. I need to take time to be in that space so that I can be in touch with what it is that I am actually feeling. What I want or need or whatever. I recently realized that I have not been doing that. How? You ask, well, I found myself getting back to that place that I had been where everything-anything-and nothing made me want to cry.
I am not as bad as I was. I am not back to that place yet, but I realized that I was heading in that direction.
Anyway, that's enough sharing for now. I will need to really get into my head soon but first I need to stop putting off my responsibilities and make myself a plan for tomorrow!!!
posted by Ali @ 1:18 PM
1 Comments:
ok lady that falls off the earth.
a. who is this guy.
b. answer your phone
c. remember coffee dates?
d. we miss you
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