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Happy Mother's Day to anyone out there who is a mother!As you all know, I'm not really - but am sort of at the same time - my baby just has 4 instead of 2 legs...
Having Cammi by myself I don't know if I could handle a real actual baby. I want one, I'm just not sure how long I could do it - but the thing with a real baby is that giving them back, or away to a friend, is not really an option once you've signed on for one. Who knows? Maybe when I'm older...
But then of course at that point my ovaries will probably have shriveled up into little raisins whose sole purpose is to torment me with a monthly mess and the fact that I never took advantage of them while they were still fresh.
Sometimes life is so not organized the way it should be.
Oh, and I've been thinking a lot lately about the people I'm attracted to, and specifically what they all seem to have in common. They are all YOUNG. As in, my little sister is older then they are born in the 80's kind of young. I REMEMBER THE 80's!!!
While that is and can be a lot of fun, I'm starting to think it may be symptomatic of some under lying something. What? You may ask - yeah, I'm not quite sure myself but I'm concerned that it may be some sort of fear of commitment thing.
Of course, maybe not. I don't really know but the thing I don't want to do is to become obsessed with assigning a reason to it. Then I may be missing the actual issue, which would be bad, and ultimately cause me to make decisions about people and relationships that didn't need to be made all based on some fear or inadequacy within myself.
Ugh!
It's at this point of the story that I would peek ahead just to make sure everyone didn't die at the end...
posted by Ali @ 10:30 AM
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